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Fight Song 2015

At the end of every year I look back on the year and choose a song that was my anthem. This year although cliche Fight Song by Rachel Platten is the most fitting.

I look at the last year and realize even though I encountered some health obstacles from lung issues following a cold to a joint flare that hit me off guard, overall my health was pretty stable and I had a lot less ER trips and hospital admissions which must mean something.

Some milestones for this year including my first pulmonary function test, trying and failing a biologic, and having my port placed. Some non medical mile stones include my first trip to the shore with the family I nanny for, surviving two more semesters of college, signing my first lease, getting in to an accelerated master's program, and going on two school paid for trips to Florida including my first professional conference and a college football bowl game.

I have fought a lot to get to where I am now but I am only holding on by a thread. I am going in to the new year with a lot of uncertainties hanging over my head in terms of my health but "I don't care if no one else believes cause still got a lot of fight left in me."


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