Let's Talk About God

I do not usually talk about God here or a lot of places outside my Hebrew School classroom. I have never prayed to God to be healed, that's not really my style. To be honest some times I get mad and ask why me? But it is silly to dwell in these thoughts for long.

Growing up I was always taught God has a plan, we just might not understand it. Human cannot see and know everything the way God can. Then when it was my turn to teach I had the opportunity to teach my students about partnering with God. Both these ideas seem to play a major role in my own relationship with God.

I really do believe God has a plan for me and always has. When I was in elementary school I wanted to be a pediatrician, around middle school I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life, and by high school I discovered I wanted to be a special education teacher. However I still sometimes wonder if I should go into health care. Since I started spending so much time in a Children's Hospital I actually discovered there are teachers who work there teaching kids who are there long term or in and out of the hospital a lot. I feel like this may be the path God wanted to put me on. In high school I received little to no support to help me with all the school I missed so I feel very passionately about providing better support to students with chronic illnesses who are constantly in and out of school. My own experiences have showed me a way of partnering with God to make the world a better place for others.

Each person has there own way of being spiritual and/or connecting with God. For me I feel like I am connecting with God when I am helping others, or as I teach my students, when I am being God's partner. And everyday I try to practice what I preach. Right now I can't teach at a Children's hospital yet as I am still in school but it does not mean I am not trying to actively help. I am currently a committee member for HootaThon, which is my college's dance marathon that benefits CHOP. What's really special about my position in the organization is I am in charge of the actual hands on volunteering we do at the hospital.

Maybe I have answered my own question of why me? Being sick has put me on the path in life I am currently on, the path that allows me to give back to others. God has a plan for me.

Here is a link to my HootaThon page to learn more about it: http://events.dancemarathon.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=donorDrive.participant&participantID=56389

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