I am not on crutches for fun!

Tonight I went to a Purim carnival, for those who don't know what Purim is, it is a Jewish holiday where people dress up. I decided on a penguin, so I could make my crutches wings.

I thought it was a good idea, but since it was the first time I had seen most people there since I had surgery, they couldn't get past the fact I was on crutches again. Mind you it has been a year since the last time I was on crutches. Everyone kept asking if the crutches were my costume. Why would I ever use crutches for fun? Ever?

Peoples reactions are really starting to get to me. Some people just stopped bothering to react to the fact I am on crutches, again it has been a year! Others tell me I am too young for hip surgery, well my hips disagree! Some people ask but don't know how to react when I tell them I had hip surgery at 17. Some people automatically assume there is something wrong with my knee, which I understand if they are aware of my knee problems, but if not they shouldn't assume.

I know I am being slightly crazy. It is just frustrating.

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